Just Another Day...

Reading over my previous posts... it would seem I am a pretty Morose person. Yeah, I guess that's right from time to time, but not always.... just so you know. lol

Today I feel very blank. Like the lights are on, you know, but no one is home. I even tried listening to music all morning and nothing seemed to light that fire. Funny the way it is, when you think about it.... I always have to look forward to something. If I don't, living seems like too much of a chore.

Let me clarify I have NO thoughts of suicide whatsoever.

Just thinking on computer, I s'pose.

Anyways, things in my life are looking up, actually. I just moved in with the greatest man I've ever known and our kitties are getting along famously. The new place is fantastic and I'm so glad he and I share similar taste in decor, as my preference tends to be slightly odd... with my post mortem pictures and voodoo masks. Thursday we will get Internet set up which means free reign for World of Warcraft!! STOKED.

So... I really have no idea why I'm writing today. Guess just needed a little window to the outside world, sitting here in my cubicle.

Make the Best of What's Around....

GrooGrux King

When my mother died, I felt a crack in my heart. When LeRoi died, I felt a crack in my soul.

I read an article yesterday about DMB's new "get up." Butch Taylor, the pianist who's played with them for years, resigned not long ago and is being replaced by non other than Tim Reynolds himself. Crazy to think Tim is now officially a member of DMB. Crazy to think Butch Taylor is gone.

A young man by the name of Coffin is replacing Roi. I got to see him live last year and he is a phenomenal saxophonist, but when I see him play I see sadness. All I can feel when I look at Coffin is that huge hole where LeRoi should be. Like I said though, he is talent all around and I don't think DMB could have chosen a better replacement.

/sigh

So many changes. DMB has been the ONLY constant thing in my life... they are my family. Seeing them go through such hard times is very difficult for me. Dave said he really hopes the remaining members don't try to 'imitate' Roi...

God, with Roi and Butch being gone... I can't help but fear the worst. The day it is announced that DMB will be going separate ways will be a heart breaking day indeed. lol Listen to me... going on like a crazy insane, stalker fan. haha hardly. Just passionate, I s'pose.

They will never be the same, and it's completely understandable why. At least I had Roi's beautiful music for as long as I did and at least I know DMB will still always be there for me.

It's just...

Seeing my soul change like this is kind of hard to take at times....